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Midnight thoughts

Sun, 12 Feb 2023 06:09:21 +0100

In no order or sequence, I just want to right down a number of things going through my mind right now.

Nothing important or serious in particular, just thoughts.

I've been listening to a Japanese (indie?) artist called Seren Azuma. She produces music professionally, which I find really awesome. It's not easy to produce music on your own. Her stuff can be found in iTunes and some other streaming platforms here. I personally bought one of her EPs and singles on iTunes (one of my platforms of preference to buy music and support artists).

I've also been playing and streaming Persona 5 Royal, and even if I'm nearing my (probably) 3000 hours on the game (Royal + base), I still get the same enjoyment as I did the first time I played this. The game is just too good; its influence over me is also spectacular. I'm not particularly influenced by a specific character, but rather its overall message and relatability with my own life experience. My playthrough playlist is here.

I also need to find time to continue and finish Atelier Ryza. Game became exponentially more fun once I learned the very core mechanics of battle and synthesizing items. I would have liked to finish at least the first game in the Ryza series before the 3rd game came out, but that doesn't seem like it's going to happen. As per usual with me, being unable to complete games.

Final thoughts for the night, I'm quite behind on both The Last of Us HBO show and Trigun Stampede. It began well when I was keeping up week after week, but I quickly dropped the pace. It's very hard for me to keep up momentum; I'm easily attracted to do different things all the time, like I almost can't sit still.

Anyway, I'm going to get some cereal and crash my bed. I'm very sleepy.

Howdy.

Thu, 09 Feb 2023 13:07:23 +0100

It's been a minute since I last posted huh. 10 years go by a lot quicker than you think.

So many things to write about, so many things have happened since my last post. I can say for sure that I've grown in many ways I never would have expected, and that I'm a much different person now than I was before.

I'm not even going to begin saying how cringe some of the things I wrote back then were. From the god-awful writing to the spelling mistakes to me begging for games on Steam... Dear me, I've come a long way.

15-year-old me wasn't very privy of personal aspects of my life, and that's something that will change moving forward here. Anonymity is quite valuable these days.

Not sure what else I'd like to write about right now. Humanity lived through a terrible pandemic. I work permanently from home and find myself almost being a productive shut-in these days. Never leave the house, but still do my work and get paid very well for it.

I like to stream during my free time. I primarily stream on YouTube because I have the worst ping possible to Twitch's servers (this didn't used to be the case).

Since I'm home 24/7, I spend valuable time with my family and they're the most important thing to me in the world. This wasn't the case years ago if you read back to some of my very old posts. You grow old, perspective changes, priorities shift.

There were many ups and downs during these last 10 or 11 years that have passed. People have come and go, but I remain here. It's nice to be back. No promises this time though, lol.

I don't even know.

Thu, 09 Feb 2023 13:07:38 +0100

2 years have past since I last wrote in here and man, I've come to find some breathtaking stuff in here. I never really expected to come back here, not because I had forgotten it but rather it had much info I didn't want to go through again.

It's all an unfinished desire. An unreachable wish that will never come true.

Her name still prints on my chest all those feelings I foolishly felt back then. I strongly believe I had no guidance as to what I was supposed to do. I never knew what I had to do. No one ever told what it should have been like. Things would've been much different now. I would be another person. I wouldn't hate 99% of the world. I would have no fear of trying. I wouldn't regret anything. I wouldn't have cried so much.

But in the end, wishes aren't true. It's just that: a wish.

I promised

Thu, 09 Feb 2023 13:07:50 +0100

So here I fucking am, blogging as I said. Don't know really what to talk about these days; im on vacation with nothing interesting to talk about....

One quick note; my ex is BITCH. I cannot believe how she is like she is (I won't get into details about her) but god dam, she's got some wrong mind to do the shit she does. But anyways, I'm so through with her now; I think I like someone else...Debbie is her name. She's driving me crazy, I can't stop thinking about her... Problem is, she's already with someone :/

But that doesn't seem to be a problem at all for me, I really don't want something right now with someone. I won't rush things like I did with my ex, I wanna take it easy and slow... If anyone knows what I mean.

Expect me to blog a lot about my life and personal related things, I don't have anyone to share all these things with, so I just write it down k.

Unitl tomorrow, I guess

Jizz all over u
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Jesus christ!

Thu, 09 Feb 2023 13:08:07 +0100

It's been 2 months since I said I was gonna keep posting! D: Da fuck is wrong with me...

Anywhos, I am back FOR REAL. This time I will post a blog everyday, if not, every 2 or 3 days. Many things have happend, such as me getting dumped from my ex, Altitude (best game ever created), a new girl who has brought me back to life (If you have read my previous blogs, you'll see a girl named Debbie.. She's the one). Im fucking in 10th grade now!!!1!

Shit so much has happend. But anyways, I promise I will blog A LOT more.

Jizz all over u
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I'm back

Thu, 09 Feb 2023 13:08:37 +0100

So yea, it's been a long while since I last blogged. Many stuffed have occurred in life. I have a girlfriend now. She's the prettiest woman alive.

I got school on my shoulders; finals are this week... Went bad on spanish... Next test is tomorrow; science, hope I get a good score. I HAVE to. But anyways.

Yea, feels somewhat good to be back though I know not many read me or read this at all but I enjoy doing it so I really don't care.

I will post on more regularly from now on until God knows when...

Behave people, life is beautiful and must be lived well.

Yea

Thu, 09 Feb 2023 13:08:43 +0100

No blogs, for a while ....

Love... dam love

Thu, 09 Feb 2023 13:08:50 +0100

So, if u read my last blog, u prolly know already that I'm in love with this girl, when I shouldn't be. Why? 1. She was the one to be interested in me from the begining. To be honest, I never looked at her in school like something else; but rather when I saw her I was like "Oh, it's Debbie" and then keep walking. My attention was never dragged to her, I really didnt care about care. 2. She said that I was the cutest guy at school (for her), and that my smile was so beautiful for her, that she always blushes when she sees me.

That was when I started to pay her a lot more attention, and umm, began to look her in different way. So, we started to talk, and stuff began to grow between me her, but it makes me sad to think that we only speak on MSN or Facebook (thing that I think is very lame for a relationship, as friends or as any other way) and we've only spoken face-to-face twice, and both of those times, a friend of her at school always came and messed up our conversation...

1 thing a friend of mine told me about her, is that she's still to small to get into this kind of stuff, with guys and else; so the choice for me right now, is not to rush with her on our relationship (we're nothing but not-too close friends) and give her some time to prepare or make her feel confident and sure about all this. I do not know if I like her, it's possible but Im sure, I don't know either if she only wants to meet me and become friends, but I take away this chance, because if it wasn't this, she wouldn't be like she is with me... But I do know that something will happen at the end of all this.

I'm not looking for a formal relationship as boyfriends right now, I just want to get closer to her, get to know her a lot more than I do right now, but for something is not letting me do it. Maybe is her, who knows...

We shall know with time...

Oh, a little note, since I'm 90% American and 10% Latino, I may right some blogs on spanish, or maybe in spanglish, lol...

Ass whiping school

Thu, 09 Feb 2023 13:09:23 +0100

So today was a dam tired day. Got PE which is so much fun, but as usual, u're gonna end up reallly tired... Besides that, I had to clean a part of the school because of an "arrangement" I did with my math teacher, and dam, u're gonna end up having twice the muscles u have right now :/

And to make things better, I got home late, and was like begging myself to reach bed and knock me into sleep for hours. But, here I am, just ate dinner and Im gonna wait for this girl Debbie to talk to me. If u all didnt know, she's a girl in school who was dying to talk me (I think I like her a lot) and we started talking about a month ago, but nothing has happend since then, besides the fact that I fell in love with her very deeply and can't tell her because I don't full trust from her to speak with her in person. Yea, she kinda thinks Im way too smart for her to talk to me (I didn't say it, she did), and feels afraid of talking to me because she thinks she's gonna say something dumb and look stupid in front of me, but of course I'll never look her like that way. Oh and we haven't even spoken in school (she's get very shy and stuff like that when Im near her but we've never spoken in school. Yet) So yea, that's what's going on on my life currently, and hopefully things between me and her progress a lot in next few days, maybe weeks. Who knows, but I gotta give it some time :')

Hello world

Thu, 09 Feb 2023 13:09:35 +0100

So yea, I made this blog about 4-5 months ago? But I've been really distracted with school. But now that the first trimester of school is over, I decided to blog "again". Things I'll blog about are gonne be mostyl about my life and things that happened or that are currently happening in my life (love, random stuff I did somewhere, stuff like that), so don't expect much to read about and I hope u ppl enjoy it =)